Almost to Destin, FL! I have gotten a lot accomplished! I am the passenger which is a rare occasion. I did a take home test, an Nivate module, finished an economics project and spent sometime talking to my mom and dad. Wow, I accomplished more today that normal. Maybe that is because I have been stuck in the car for 10 hours. It doesn’t seem like that though because I have been busy the whole time. Having a computer with internet access is really the way to travel! My IT guy at work hooked me up and got me internet through my job for the week (although he knows that what I am using it for is not for work :) It definately keeps you occupied. How did we make it as kids traveling with nothing but a coloring book and the license game? OMG, it would take forever!!!!!! Now the kids have ipods, iphones, internet, movies, video games…….man what I would have given to have a DVD player in my car when I was growing up. Looking forward to some time on the beach. Not so much the sun….its the sound. The sound of my kids laughing, the sound of the waves, the sound of no one complaining, whining, nagging at me at work. Being back in my second home state makes me happy as well, my toes in the sand makes me happy, being with my family makes me happy and not being on a schedule makes me even happier. Have a good week guys, I will try and drop in for some pictures:)
It was a good day. Passed my test, went to the burn unit in ICU, not sure how I feel about the whole situation. I’m afraid to touch the patient, not because it’s gross or all of the insanely intimidating tubes and machines, it’s because I just don’t want to hurt them. I know we are there to help but OMG, how much can one person take. My
Worst fear is being burned and here I am in the BuRN UNiT. Just great. Face your fears, accomplish anything……..
In 2003, I signed up for nursing school. I was scared and excited and ready for a change. My new husband of one year said I could accomplish anything and I believed him. Now 4 schools and 9 1/2 years later, I’m almost there. I’m laying here in bed, listening to him sleep(snore) soundly while I for the last 9 years have had insomnia. Worried about all the what if’s and what nexts. I surely couldn’t do it without support from my family and my friends I have at school keep me going on a daily basis. The friendships I have made will last a lifetime. I have enjoyed school for the most part but having been going for
So long, I find myself burnt out and wondering why I chose this field. I don’t know where the phrase came from that said,” well, if I can’t make it in “fill in the blank” I’ll just go to nursing school” what in the hell were they going for? Brain surgeon? This school isn’t a joke. It’s not JUST nursing school, this is freakin’ MED school. I’m so close to the finish line but still in the back of my head I am terrified to even make it out of school. What if I hurt someone? What if I give an incorrect medication or dont see that a patient is showing signs of a heart attack or stroke. The signs aren’t what you see on tv, not all people just grab their chest and fall out in the floor. What if I lose my license after all this work over a stupid careless mistake. I’m not even out of school and I have already done CPR on a patient. Want to talk about life changing! Wow. I can’t imagine doing that over and over again. I’m now at work, in my comfy seat where I know what I’m doing, I love my boss, my coworkers, my patients, the only thing missing is that paycheck I’m dreaming of. Is that why I want to be a nurse? Money? No. But it sure helps. I love people. I love talking to them, learning about their life, their family’s, their adventures. I just cant really imagine NOT being a nurse because I’ve done it so long. So I guess there’s my answer. I was meant to do this. I will do this. I am going to remind myself that I should be thankful for the wonderful things that have come from going to school. The work has been
And will be worth it. I’m doing this to make a difference in people’s lives. I pray God will give me strength and peace while going through this struggle and to use me as an instrument to encourage those around me who are burnt out as well. Thanks for reading and please keep your fingers crossed.